Monday, May 31, 2010

The soul is never complete alone

I believe the human body is too small to contain all the energy that exists in a single soul, consciounes, whatever you want to call it. So that means we are never meant to go through existence here alone. We are meant to find our other parts of ourselves, our partners. If that is insufficient then continues in family, children, reaching backwards and forwards in time. Sometimes chaos or randomness of the universe intervenes and we lose or never meet our partner or lose our children. Human physiology makes us feel pain but it is only temporary. When the body dies we rejoin our whole self and rejoin the whole universe.

- Posted from my iPhone

Location:State St,Madison,United States


Music is nothing but a collection of frequently and different energy eaves of sound that, when they hit the matter of the inner ear are transformed into electrical impulses that the brain interprets as pleasant or not. In the whole of the universe nothing as extraordinary as that moment when the collection of chemicals released affect the emotion of the crature. or is it? What would it be to exist as energy? Energy never dies it is only transformed. This means that my beloved daughter, when her body died, her unique energy signature left the body and rejoined the universal energy which connects all matter, all energy, everything seen and unseen. Though the emotion if loss and suffering keeps me trapped in the moment she died, in a way I never left that vet clinic. Fucking time lines and fuxkkng not able to go back and save her. This universe this eistence sucks fuk it all! She was the best thing that ever happened to me she brought me out of isolation and showed me that I had the ability to be selfless and strong. Now here I sit without her and only her memory. I should take comfort in that she does still exist somewhere outthere and may even have been born into physical form again able to help another creature. I miss her so much though.

- Posted from my iPhone

Location:State St,Madison,United States

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Remembering where I come from

This day has been a really emotional day. I've been at my parents farm with my sister and her fiancé a friend from school. They're bailing hay. I forgot how much I missed the smell. My mom gave me my grandmothers lass ring which she said my grandma wanted me to have. It's soo funny that to all of them this is just another weekend on the farm but for me this is an incredibly emotional day. But it's nice to be reminded that I am still part of this family and the only thing keeping me from this is my own stubborn emotions and thoughts. It's nice.

- Posted from my iPhone

Location:Pirkel Ln,Jefferson,United States

Sunday, May 23, 2010

The inner brain

The inner brain and inner peace. My tooth and jaw I starting to ache cuz of a cracked tooth and fallen out filling.

- Posted from my iPhone

Location:N Baldwin St,Madison,United States

The new doctor

How do I feel about the new doctor on doctor who? He's ok.

- Posted from my iPhone

Location:Fordem Ave,Madison,United States

Saturday, May 22, 2010


Eating at a restaurant with some friends. It's nice to be out and social again. Today is my 3 year anniversary with my partner. Wow three years. I still love him.

- Posted from my iPhone

Location:State St,Madison,United States

Friday, May 21, 2010

What's in a toliet

A rose is still a rose given any other name... But would it smell as sweet? Not in a toliet.

- Posted from my iPhone

Location:Heartland Trail,Madison,United States

Monday, May 17, 2010

should we always bust out in song?

i think, why not? do it.

Second post

This is my second post. i'm not sure what to write. i'm listening to Glee as i listen to gay speak and happy ending with straight boy and love with him. whatever. yea.

What is Glee have that I don't?

Singing and gay. And Ms Pillsbury. She's funny.